Me

In a couple months I'm going to be 31. That will make me 9 years away from 40, then just 10 years away from 50. I've been amazed at how much I still feel like 'Brooke' at age 30. After, marriage, home, 2 kids, and 30 years I would expect myself to feel more like 'Debra' and less like 'Brooke'. So, when I do reach 50, will I still feel just the same as I do now? Will I find it hard to sit still for 3 hours of church? With our children grown, and not sitting on the pews next to us, will I go back to passing notes to John like I did before Joshua?
John actually had his first real day at church in 6 weeks today. Because I'm the primary chorister, when a kid is sick John is the one that stays home. So, John had only been to church twice in the last 6 weeks, and both times he was subbing in primary, making today his first official adult day back at church.
Strangely, or not strangely, I am loving being the primary chorister. All 3 hours of church are enjoyable, spiritual, energetic, and interesting. I really believe that it is the absolute perfect calling for me - which is surprising because I really don't sing. My voice is pretty bad - and has no range at all. But I'm loving it. I'm not minding the cost, effort, or consistency. I've had the stomach flu, colds, sore throats, been completely drained, but still managed to be up there - and enjoying it. I love the songs, and I think that kids are my best audience. I would make a horrible relief society teacher or Sunday school teacher. And I would hate the pressure and anxiety the calling would give me. But kids bring on no anxiety, and I am excited to teach them. So - it's perfect for me, I love it, and I hope I don't get released for a long time!